MY WORLD AT A NEW THRESHOLD
With the new world virus, or you can say, human nemesis occurring recently, my husband is going to lose his job soon.
The premonition came like a wrecking ball in Mylie Cyrus' music video to our lives.
Honestly, both my husband and I do not make much income, only a combined household of 15k monthly, but with everyday expenses, debts and occasional spoiling, we are left with approximately 5 months of savings. It's also a reassuring thought that I am working with the government, and the government has a reservoir in dealing with this kind of crisis (I hope).
Reality aside, I have been immersing in "Conversating with Higher Inner Voice" daily or at least 3 years now. It takes place in my car, every day when commuting to my workplace. I would always start with "Dear God" and proceeds with wishing to be given the "strength" and "will" and "wisdom". It may sound silly, but it has been my sole confession and stress reliever after my life has been dipped in a shithole my brother had singlehandedly created. (Note: My brother coerced my parents and me to loan him a combined 150k to cover his lazy ass' debts, and now had to sell the house my mother bought to cover up more lazy ass' debts.) So, yeah, my immediate family has been in a tidal wave, because of one human being's incapability of going to work. You can't imagine how much loathing I have in someone. If that's not enough, my father and mother are both sick and I can't do anything about it.
I was desperate enough to want to get a house nearby for my parents to stay at. But money doesn't occur that way. Too bad I'm not a sales genius, when I see my colleagues excelling in direct sales and MLM. However, I'm doing a startup that sells jewellery. Hopefully, wishfully, this thing works and helps reverse my debts and provide my husband and my parents a safe haven. I've come through quite a lot to reach this phase.
Every day my mind wanders away from my aching heart and body, just for a while.
The premonition came like a wrecking ball in Mylie Cyrus' music video to our lives.
Honestly, both my husband and I do not make much income, only a combined household of 15k monthly, but with everyday expenses, debts and occasional spoiling, we are left with approximately 5 months of savings. It's also a reassuring thought that I am working with the government, and the government has a reservoir in dealing with this kind of crisis (I hope).
Reality aside, I have been immersing in "Conversating with Higher Inner Voice" daily or at least 3 years now. It takes place in my car, every day when commuting to my workplace. I would always start with "Dear God" and proceeds with wishing to be given the "strength" and "will" and "wisdom". It may sound silly, but it has been my sole confession and stress reliever after my life has been dipped in a shithole my brother had singlehandedly created. (Note: My brother coerced my parents and me to loan him a combined 150k to cover his lazy ass' debts, and now had to sell the house my mother bought to cover up more lazy ass' debts.) So, yeah, my immediate family has been in a tidal wave, because of one human being's incapability of going to work. You can't imagine how much loathing I have in someone. If that's not enough, my father and mother are both sick and I can't do anything about it.
I was desperate enough to want to get a house nearby for my parents to stay at. But money doesn't occur that way. Too bad I'm not a sales genius, when I see my colleagues excelling in direct sales and MLM. However, I'm doing a startup that sells jewellery. Hopefully, wishfully, this thing works and helps reverse my debts and provide my husband and my parents a safe haven. I've come through quite a lot to reach this phase.
Every day my mind wanders away from my aching heart and body, just for a while.
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